This is the third time I have tried to write this blog. Crazy, right? You would think it would not be that hard to write something and then just post it, but it was. So why did it take so long? I realized there were some things I had to experience before I could share with you all. Here goes:
I recently graduated college. Which is so exciting, right! While I was thankful for this big accomplishment, I felt so empty. I thought that there should have been this certain ‘feeling.’ A feeling that I can only describe as ‘secure.’ However, I didn’t. I thought to myself that the reason I felt this way was because I didn’t hear back from pharmacy school yet. So, I then convinced myself that once I got into pharmacy school by the grace of God, I was going to feel ‘secure.’ A few weeks after graduating, I was accepted into pharmacy school (I will write a blog about that testimony soon). I was elated, and could not believe it. I then was waiting for this empty feeling to go away, as if my acceptance would just deposit this sense of security in my heart, but it didn’t. So what now? Why was I feeling like this?
In addition to graduating, I also began a relationship, and all I can say is that it has been very interesting. I also had an idea of how a relationship should go—it was going to be perfect, just like the movies. That is so very wrong. I questioned everything, and doubted myself. I was so obsessed on being the ‘perfect girlfriend,’ that I lost sight of who I really was. This caused so many problems. Thankfully, we had a talk and he explained to me that all he wants is for me to be me. He was not interested in the girl who was trying to be a ‘perfect girlfriend,’ but he was interested in me. I had such a feeling of relief! It was exhausting trying to be someone I knew I wasn’t. Why did I even feel the need to do that? Well, I was scared that if I didn’t, he wouldn’t like me anymore, and that I had to be different now that our friendship had a different ‘title.’
After that talk, I realized a few things. God created me, and knew my purpose before I was even born: “I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born I set you apart…” Jeremiah 1:5 NLT. Isn’t that pretty amazing! God created me for His purpose, and all I need to be is His masterpiece. But then, I questioned myself and wondered who am I? What is it that I need to do to be ‘me?’ If you ever get to that point, stop and pray! All God wants from us is to Love Him, and love others. God says in His word that there is no other commandment greater than these: “And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind, and all your strength.’ The second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ No other commandment is greater than these” Mark 12:30-31 NLT. Whoa.
At my college graduation, I was able to share some encouraging words to my graduating class. I referenced Dr. Seuss’ quote “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.” Your identity is in Christ, and for that reason all you have to be is YOU, and if anyone has a problem with that, they can take that up with God. This world has over 7 billion people, and believe it or not, there is only 1 of you. God created you to fulfill His purpose, and in order to do that; He needs you to be you! In writing this blog, I am so encouraged, because I truly understand the importance of being His masterpiece. It’s not something you have to try to do, but it’s what you be, and it’s who you are. Let Christ be enough for you. Don’t be consumed with trying to be someone you’re not, to impress people— it’s exhausting.
I hope you are encouraged by this blog, and know that God loves you! Be. His. Masterpiece.