Have you ever tried to do a task all on your own? Or have you set up a whole life plan for yourself? If you have, I am right there with you! So then, let me ask you this: has it ever worked out the way you planned? Well, it NEVER has for me. I have found myself in complete confusion, when my plans fell apart. I wondered how could a perfectly thought out plan just not work? Along with feeling confused, I also would get frustrated, angry, and feel hopeless! I then had to realize that in every single one of those failed attempts; I never spoke to God about what He wants for my life.
I can be a very impatient person at times, so constantly asking God what to do, or what my purpose is seemed like it was going nowhere. I thought to myself, well since God isn’t doing anything, I’ll take care of it myself. In doing this, I pretended like God didn’t know what I was doing, and I was planning behind His back. But, we can’t hide anything from God! “Nothing in all creation is hidden from God. Everything is naked and exposed before his eyes, and he is the one to whom we are accountable.” Hebrews 4:13
I planned, and planned, and even believed in my mind that everything was perfect. For example, I had the perfect four-year plan, I was going to go to college, get over a 3.5 every semester, I was going to join the Christian organizations and make a lot of Christian friends. I planned to go to medical school after college, and become a pediatrician. I even thought to myself that by my sophomore year, I was going to meet the perfect guy, and we would date throughout college and then get married. LOL just typing this makes me laugh, but if you haven’t guessed it already, it didn’t quite happen like that. I came to college, had issues with my roommates— which caused me to move two times my freshman year— and the organizations I was going to join were not what I expected.
By the middle of my freshman year, I realized that this plan of mine was falling to pieces. I was devastated. So, what happened? I cried out to God—literally. I was in my dorm room, and I was so upset with myself that I told God “I can’t do this on my own, so I am going to give it you.” I stopped planning and focused on asking God to direct me where He wants me to go. He did just that. The next semester, I went to a random interest meeting for an organization, and when walking back to my room, I randomly started speaking to this girl who lived next door. Little did I know, she was a Christian too. She invited me to a Christian group the next day, and I absolutely loved it, it was exactly the kind of thing I wanted. To make a very long story short, that girl and I are best friends now, and everything I could have wanted, happened. I joined more groups on campus, and I was able to meet other Christians that I am glad to call good friends today.
Even though, my career choice changed, I don’t have a 3.5 gpa, or the perfect guy, I ended up having a college experience that exceeded my expectations. I realized that God is the one who directs my path, and He has good intentions for me. “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11
I learned through that situation that God has the perfect plan, and you have to allow Him to direct you. When you are praying, seeking, and asking him to take full control, He will place the desires in your heart that align with His will. “Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4.
Yes, I know it gets frustrating when you feel like God is not doing anything, or that things are not going the way you planned. However, you have to trust that God is going to fulfill His plan for your life, and it is going to be way better than any plan you could have put together. Trust that in this time of waiting, that He is preparing you for what will come to pass. But please, please don’t try to go ahead of God, and don’t think He doesn’t know when you try to plan things outside of his will. Save yourself the trouble!
There is a song that I absolutely love named “Captian” by Hillsong United. This song is truly amazing, because it reminds me everyday that Jesus is my captain. My favorite part goes:
“Through waters uncharted my soul will embark,
I’ll follow Your voice straight into the dark,
And if from the course You intend I depart
Speak to the sails of my wandering heart”
I encourage you all to allow Jesus to be your captain. Let Him lead you, because He has the best route in store for you. I hope this encourages you, just as much as it encourages me! And don’t forget to Be His Masterpiece.